Love is the most beautiful pain. It is the most beautiful wound that can never heal. It is a scar which is seen by none but can be only seen by you. It is a paradise in which you get immense pain tears roll down your cheeks but at the same time smile doesn’t leaves your face. Each flashback that hits you is more worst than a heart attack but still that pain and the anguish is the most peaceful thing in the world. It kills you piece by piece breaks you down into several pieces and still your alive desperately asking for death. Every scream that you shout in pain is more satisfying than evey laugh of your happiness. Evey sleepless night that goes by reminds you that there is going to be another bright sunny morning whose rays would burn your tears and force you to smile so that you conceal your pain from the whole world. So strong is the power of love that it can destroy you and your life but still that destruction in which you have lived gives you a feeling of satisfaction that you can never ever get even in a paradise. Who understands can never portray or define it accurately and who cannot understand just names it stupidity…..Because it’s LOVE the most complicated feeling in the whole universe…….!
Each day of my life is something wired from the time you were gone. Everyday that I face this world I grow stronger from outside and weaker from inside. Every night I cry in your memory, Every morning I wake up with a gloomy face and when I see myself in the mirror I make myself ready to face this world with a fake smile. Each day I say myself that I hate you, you no longer exist in my life, I don’t care about you and I still do think about you a hundred times in a day. Whomever I meet and who ever asks me about you I say your no longer a part of my life, it looks as if I’m not telling them but indeed making myself forcefully accepted this fact that now you are just a stranger for me. I have tried every single attempt to forget you and lately realized that everything went in vain a ray of hope still lies inside me indeed this hope kills me.. Hope that there’s still something left, hope that today some miracle might happen, hope that we can work out on our difference again,indeed a hope to get you back. But I know its never going to happen, though I know this I simply still cannot accept such a simple thing believing this is just so difficult looks as if I’m crushing my heart, breaking my own self from inside but still how much ever it might hurt, how much ever I shout I cry I need to accept it… But one thing that doesn’t leave my heart is that ray of hope… All my strength that I gather whole day to forget you goes away when once I enter my room and lie on bed all my strength vanishes and I become more weak than I was before tears start rolling down my cheeks and I finally reach the same point from where I have begun just because that small ray of hope never dies…..!
I was living a life in the room of darkness, a world full of lies. My loneliness was my companion, I was completely broken apart. Everything I had was lost. I had a heart filled with pain. I always went unnoticed in the crowed . Nothing in this world mattered me. I lost my self like a girl sailing all alone lost in an ocean. My thoughts were filled with negativity… And there you came in my life like a positive ray of hope and I was never alive like I was when I saw you, you made me understand who I was, you made me feel that even I existed in this world. You held my hand and pulled me out of darkness. You are the every reason of my smile , I m alive just because of you, just for you.. And today even you left me again in the same room of darkness but this time I want to tell you I want to stay Alive and be happy, live with you and just for you but now your gone and I’m sailing again lost in the same ocean but this time in search of you… I just have one thing to say your smile is a peace to me, your caring attitude is a hope for me to live and you are the only reason that makes me Alive…..
Each day passes by and my love for you just goes on increasing. Every day that goes by I lie to myself and to the whole world that I do not care about you anymore, I do not love you anymore but the moment I’m alone I’m surrounded just by your thoughts. My lonlies only reminds me of you and the smile that comes on my face just by thinking about you. Every night I cry in your memory , every morning I decide to forget you and move on..!, but I still find myself waiting in the time where u left me, like a girl standing in a desert with an umbrella who hopes every day that someday or the other there might be a rainfall. I have tried every possibility to forget you but everything in vain. Each day I wish to catch a glimpse of you somewhere in this big world I meet only with disappointment. My hope to get you back never ends. The moment I saw you one fine day I was taken aback, I did not know what say or what to do but seeing you in front of me standing silently saying simply nothing was killing me from inside. I wanted to tell you that your silence kills me. Your eyes simply portrays your love towards me but your silence only kills me …….